Happy halloweenie

The older I get the more I enjoy dressing up for Halloween. Great ideas, hang out sessions with the girls making costumes, amazing friends & awesome memories. Our super hero idea turned out amazing!


Enjoy a recap of my Halloween..

Surprise of the century

My best friend came home & surprised me!! Couldn't be happier. That is all. :)

Anchors away,

Samantha

Red

There's an old poem by Neruda that I've always been captivated by, and one of the lines in it has stuck with me ever since the first time I read it. It says, "love is so short, forgetting is so long." It's a line I've related to in my saddest moments, when I needed to know someone else had felt that exact same way. And when we're trying to move on, the moments we always go back to aren't' the mundane ones. They are the moments you saw sparks that weren't really there, felt starts aligning without having any proof, say your future before it happened, and then saw it slip away without any warning. These are moments of newfound hope, extreme joy, intense passion, wishful thinking, and in some cases, the unthinkable letdown. And in my mind, every one of these memories looks the same to me. I see all of these moments in bright, burning, red.

My experiences in love have taught me difficult lessons, especially my experiences with crazy love. The red relationships. The ones that went from zero to a hundred miles per hour and then hit a wall and exploded. And it was awful. And ridiculous. And desperate. And thrilling. And when the dust settled, it was something I'd never take back. Because there is something to be said for being young and needing someone so badly, you jump in head first without looking. And there's something to be learned from waiting all day for a train that's never coming. And there's something to be proud about moving on and realizing that real love shines golden like starlight, and doesn't fade or spontaneously combust.


The above caption is the reason why I love Taylor Swift so much. I know it's cliche to be a girl that loves her, but sometimes she really says how I'm feeling when I'm unable to say the words. I have yet to be in a healthy relationship and think that any guy I get involved with is a "red" guy. I fall hard, fast, and I'm almost always disappointed. Lucky for me I have a fast bounce back, but I feel myself going back anytime the past comes knocking. Recently I feel like I'm being tested, and I'm slowly moving towards being someone I really dont like. The kind of girl that always made me cry. I need to get it together and push past. I know my prince charming is somewhere in this crazy, red world.

Anchors Away,

Samantha

I SURVIVED

I've been dreading this day for months. I thought for sure the date on the calendar would send me into a downward spiral that left me crippled in bed. BUT I'm happy to report I didn't even realize the date & I'm not throwing myself a pity party. Frankly, I didn't even think about the person tied to this date & that makes me feel ecstatic.


In other news, so happy to have a lazy sunday watching this...

(Anyone who knows me understands my love of Harry Potter)

Anchors Away,

Samantha

Great day to be from Detroit!

World Series bound!

I believe

that everyone is brought into your life for a reason. I can't even begin to explain how thankful I am to have met two of the girls I work with. I believe that one shows me exactly where I was in my life a year ago (but she's way more together & a lot less messy relationship) & the other shows me everything I want to become. They're inspiring and make me realize all the work I've done on myself in the last year. SO PROUD at how strong and independent I've become.

When I'm 60 I want a story not a "I shoulda moved but never did".. so research research research into what I want to do next.. grad school? move? THIS IS TOO STRESSFUL.


p.s I had a really awesome work out today & I LOVE being sore.. operation skinny Samantha is back in full force.

Anchors Away,


Samantha

Inspiring

Today during my very first parent conference (YAY), I got a little inspiration from a mom. She blogs (which apparently is all the rage) and I was really intrigued by it. So, after not only finding hers, but a few other awesome blogs I figured, WHY NOT?

Post college I'm trying to find my niche in the world. I want to experience as many new things as possible.. & hopefully meet some really awesome guy along the way! Follow me through my struggle to figure out what I really want my career to be, where I want to get involved & stay tuned for some really awesome crafts.

I'm really hesitant about blogging but for once, I'll put myself out there! & as a good friend told me, "if you like it you'll keep doing it if not, you'll just forget about it. Nothing should hold you back"

Anchors Away,

Samantha