Sometimes I think it's a good idea to break down my walls & then certain things happen that have me building them back up. The pain my family is going through right now dealing with the death of my cousins boyfriend is almost more than I can bare. I feel guilty for only meeting him once, that although I accept their homosexual relationship, I didn't free up more time to spend with them both. In this day everyone is so selfish. So worried about themselves & what plans that they have. Over the last year that's all I've done. Busied myself to get through, bounce from friend to friend and I realize how senseless it all is. I grew up with my cousin but couldn't find the time to drive to Toledo with him? Shame on me, I wasn't raised that way. My heart is truly hurting for how I've acted in the last year. Sometimes time is all you have, and thats usually something I don't share with many people.



Anchors away,

Samantha