Suddenly, all of my friends are either on the road to get married or super single. One by one another couple is getting engaged and I really can't help but feel the pressure. I mean I'm 25, at this age my mom was busy chasing after a two year old. I know I shouldn't feel pressure because my boyfriend is quit frankly, excellent, but I feel so behind.
The weekends. Before, the weekends were an excuse to consume substantial amounts of alcohol and hang out with friends, but now, that's pretty much the opposite of what I like doing. My friends & I have transitioned to group hang outs (cause everyone is a couple), and surprise surprise.... I love it. We drink, socialize, actually enjoy each other's company. When I get invited to bars I actually try to find reasons for me not to have to go. I would much rather attend a group hang out at bowling than g to a bar with a bunch of single fools who are drinking until they puke. Or better yet, watch movies and drink beer, at home. Sigh, see what I'm saying, old.
Friends. I'm happy to say that I've found my people. Ones who I can count on, don't have to talk yo everyday, who get me, and who I actually put an effort in to maintain a relationship with. And while I'm proud of finding my people, the people around me have not done the same. Oh, how frustrating it is to watch my friends get kicked around people they consider "friends".
And to top it off let's not even go into my weight issues. I was spoiled in young adult and had a tiny body, with no effort, as a result I grew lazy. I've gained weight and become self conscious about things I've never had to worry about. Talk about frustrating. But I'm going 4 months strong on working out and finally starting to see some results, and it honestly feels great.
I guess I should just get used to all of the changes that are going on because they aren't likely to subside anytime soon.
Anchors away,
Samantha
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